Momentary lapse

So another year has ended and a new one has begun. This transition, in my opinion, should last longer. I often wish there were some way to probably create a stopover, or an interval or some kind of a time lag before things start moving again. I would like to take a moment to think, to analyze how to make the next year better and not to make same mistakes again.

Each year, when people are kissing the air and wishing each other good luck for new year, I am left wishing what if the clock stops ticking right when it strikes midnight.
I wish to take a breath, I wish to sit down on a bench in a quiet park, I wish to soak in the moment before moving on. This is never going to happen.
 I always feel I am being rushed into something, and that feeling just spoils the fun for me. Almost always.

We are 5

5. Seems insignificant when read like that no? but when you add years next to the number its almost like a lifetime, a dogs lifetime I mean. Thats how long its been with this blog.

:)

The mirror is back

I finally had what I was looking for a long time, some solitude. It was well timed, my parents trip to Bombay and granma getting better so that she was fit to travel. I declined the invitation of traveling with them.

I made a few additions to the room, trying to make it look mine. For six months it belonged to her. She had put little idols of her favourite Gods and Goddesses and the wall where Jim hung was ignored. She doesn't know he is my God.

The mirror looks perky again with new pictures glued in, just the way I like. My bed doesn't stink of iodex anymore, instead it smells of me, of Body Shop.

I will miss having her around, but I love my room, most importantly my space.

Why so random - II

I hate people who try too hard to be random. I know this is the second time I am ranting about it on the blog, but it is just too much to handle. It’s not these acts of randomness but the reason why they do it, that gets on my nerves.



Get attention. Now being random is very post-modern, but trying to get attention is so not! Convince me that you truly believe in all that you say not by overdoing it but by living by it.


So next time you spot someone trying to be all over the place in the name of post modernity, please stop and slap their butts. Do not encourage such people because that is exactly what they are looking for.


Exist because you love to rather than to prove a point. Try to be cool because you are born that way rather than putting an act on. It is so not cool.

Note to self

It is quite a wonder how most of my reflective experiences occur in unusual places namely the toilet seat, in the bathroom while washing clothes or while waiting in the queue to fill water amongst many others.



Today while washing truckloads of clothes that accumulate due to my habit of changing clothes at least four times a day, it occurred to me how I need to adjust my focus. For a very long time a constant thought had been bothering me. I simply could not pinpoint on the reasons but at the back of my mind, it kept nibbling on my tiny brain.


As I was clearing out my stack of dirty laundry, I was simultaneously clearing out my mind as well; very metaphorical it turned out to be. I smiled and thought of putting down this experience on the blog.


It occurred to me that, though I am existing now I need to start living again. Do things I used to do to be happy. Think of good things so I dream of them at night. Though I know all of this will happen only after the next five months pass. But at least I can look forward to the time after so that these five months pass soon.

“A person is a success if they get up in the morning and gets to bed at night and in between does what he wants to do.”  Bob Dylan

Newbies- II

Ok, the first list did not quite work out the way I wanted, blame it on.. oh just forget it. One should always look forward to newer things

So here is part II

Next purchase: Almost French by Sarah Turnbill

New song stuck on my lips: Anyone else but you by Moldy Peaches

New favourite author: Pico Iyer

Next film to watch: This list is quite long actually. Eat, pray, love. The  Social Network. The King's speech. The tourist.

New thing on "to buy when I have a real job list" is a Vacation to Venice

Sums up!

This place is not fit for the fearless brave hearts, but ideal for the timid. The ones who find strength in other people's weakness. The ones who hold higher moral grounds in spite of their stained consciences. So what exactly are they achieving? Are they hiding in the burrows of their disparity by making life miserable for those brave hearts? The timid gets away with this behaviour because timid lives in a constant anonymity but the brave hearts are the most visible. Their actions are noticeable sometimes even generate curiosity, jealousy or plain defencelessness amongst the timid. The timid hide their incompetency not by overdoing the brave heart but by bringing the brave heart down by hook or crook. 

Special one

Some incidents teach you rather big lessons in life. I have learnt one today, it doesn’t matter how many read what you write, how many understand and how many acknowledge. When what you write touches one heart, it matters. When what you write makes a difference to a life, it matters. When what you write brings a smile on someone’s face, it matters. These are the people who matter and when they read, its more than enough. This one was for you Bani.



Wishing you oodles of much deserved love.

The ugly missy

I saw her name in red neon.
The woman who has an ugly green toungue and she speaks all blue.
Her mind is the dark of a dungeon and her heart is a solid grey.
She wears a filthy yellow while she carries a gory expression.

:-)

They always give me a reason to smile..every morning definitely

Update

I have started my internship with Indian Express in Poona. Its day four today, so far things have been decent. I am in my third internship and I have no real job yet :(


Jinx Diary:-


Entry # 12,765 :- Toppled down the stairs again. Scratched my very expensive Vogue sunglasses. Sprained my ankle. While getting in the car, I had my hands smeared with grease which left stains on my lovely white shirt. It doesnt stop here by the way. I ride 4 Kilometers with Daddy only to realize I have forgotten my Phone at home. So while I beg him to take me back he gives me a long lecture on how I need to start meditating to improve my concentration power.
I have more than half a day to go and I am sure this doesnt stop here. Bring it on

Lets tweet

What are we turning into? A community that communicates in 140 characters or less? I miss writing long letters, elaborately giving details of my recent vacation to my friends. Today it would be. “Meenakshi Iyer returned with sun burns and an amazing tan, she loves Goa.”

Twitter is turning us into people with shorter attention spans, with abysmal retention power. It’s like a disease I say if am allowed to be a little crude here. We no longer prefer reading texts that flows into more than three paragraphs.

It is certainly revolutionizing communication but in which direction is the question? We roll our eyes if we find people who are not on Twitter, celebrities are fast signing up as well. Now, I completely support the new media and its wonders, but at the same time, I also take a step backward and contemplate. Where is this leading me?

Social networking puts you in a spot where telling the world what you up to is more like an urge. People are living two lives- online and offline.

Online they have the control, they can mould their persona the way they would like to see them online, it’s like living a virtual dream. So you join groups, become fans of things you don’t even have a clue about? Why? Because the rest of the world is doing so. It is herd behaviour. You want to impress a girl, just manipulate your interests/hobbies sections of your profiles. But what are you in real life may be totally diametrically opposite of what you pretend to be. You go out with your gang of boys, have a great night at the friendly bar, you come home and the first thing on your mind is to put pictures on facebook. You want the world to know that you have an awesome life (considering the popular definition of awesome= social)

Social media definitely revs up your cool Q but at the same time it is turning you into someone you are not.

10 tips on “How to survive a long distance relationship”

Being in a long distance relationship is as good as being single without availing the advantages of being single. So what does one do, when you are in one?




1. Communicate- In a long distance relationship, it is important you communicate with your boyfriend/girlfriend as often as possible. Keep them updated about your activities, make them feel a part of it. But also remember do not over-communicate. With the perks of web 2.0, social networking, instant messaging can be done at the click of a tab, but remember having someone popping up every now and then may not be always surprising.


2. Make plans together- It is given that you as a couple do not meet often. So make plans for the time you would be together like watch films, play scrabble, cook a meal. There can be a million things that you could do together. This would keep you going till the time you guys are actually with each other. Whether the plans work or no is a different thing, but the wait is made more fun.


3. Spell it out- In a long distance relationship it is not possible for your girlfriend or boyfriend to predict your mood swings, highs and lows. Sometimes coincidences happen, but not always. Express yourself, tell your boyfriend/girlfriend about things that may be bothering you, emote, talk, and seek advice.


4. Give surprises- It is always nice to receive a bunch of flowers or a CD of your favourite artist as a gift. Do small little things to make each other feel special. Even if it is just writing a letter or sending a postcard.


5. Be consistent- The initial few months of a relationship are the best and are sure meant to be treasured. But why not make every moment special? It is obvious that on certain days you would be busy, you might not give each other enough time, but try and compensate for it.


6. Appreciate- If your partner is going out of his/her way to make an effort, appreciate it and most importantly reciprocate. There is nothing worse than no acknowledgement. All of us need a little motivation, it could be this.


7. Listen and not just hear- It is important that when your boyfriend/girlfriend is expressing something, you listen with utmost concentration. You wouldn’t want your girlfriend to go, “Are you even listening to me?”, while your mind is on the Pizza Hut menu card or a football match. Understand what your boyfriend/girlfriend is trying to convey. Do not make stupid remarks, it could be very irritating.


8. Sex talk- This is the most important. It is important you keep the anticipation heightened for the time you are together. Talk about things you want to do, discuss your fantasies (about each other), appreciate each other’s qualities in bed.


9. Enjoy when together- Forget all worries, live in the moment, go with the flow. When you are together, enjoy each other’s company, make the most of the time you have. Those two days away from the routine and being together will never come back. Make it special, worth remembering, till the time you see each other again.


10. Accept the situation- You cannot dismiss the fact that you are in a long distance relationship. Do not regret, do not let your partner feel it is their fault. Stay away from going on a guilt trip, start accepting the situation. The sooner, the better. It sucks, we all know that. But stop cribbing and start acting on the 9 tips above.


PS: PMSing sometimes makes me think better, now that’s something like a self discovery.


(A stupid thought at 4 am in the morning led to this post.)

365

Its been a year already. It feels like yesterday and I have already served a year. Am a year older, a year smarter.     

So much has happened, that there is no vivid memory of a beginning or an end. Its hazy, may be I let it go too soon. 

The best part is I have already predicted the next year, the same rigamarole, the same gossips, the same people, the same senseless, meaningless existence that I have already come to terms with. 

Its like a whirling cyclone that keeps building, to the point that you become an insignificant being stuck in it. I have lost my anchor, and I have my house in the cyclone. 

Will I ever return? Will I get used to the twists and turns, the churning day in and day out, that I will forget my world, the world where I used to belong. 

Post it

Lets not put too many walls around us.

Lets not push people away because they are too close.

Lets not make inhibitions our garb.

Lets not ignore what our heart says,

Lets not obey the mind mindlessly.

Lets not know the destination all the time,

lets not think twice before taking the plunge.

Lets not just survive but breathe.

lets not have judgements, not even one bit

Today, lets just be who we are and love thyself.....

A drunk ode

  

   Dear Beer,

  when I have you near,

  I have no fear 

  Everything is not so clear       

  yet i wanna cheer

(Photo courtesy: Denny L. Laloo)

Newbies

New obsession- Keeping everything around me super clean. Vacuum out every single particle of dust. My body has reached that point, it cannot take dust anymore.

Next purchase- New shoes (Tresmode). Daddy I hope you are reading this :P

New song stuck on my lips- Yeh mera deewanapan hai ....by Susheela Raman (Original by Mukesh)

Next tattoo- on my left foot


New favorite author- Mark Haddon


Next must watch- Inception


New thing on the "to buy when I have a real job" list- Chanel rubber effect Python tote

Why so random?

Its funny how some people think they sound smart by thinking random.. why? The only person you make sense to is you. Get that?

Lets decode randomness

1) People think and write random because they want to make an incognito point
2) Lash out at people they hate
3) Too scared to face reality, thus take the help of fantasy
4) Prove a point without having to go through the pain of being upfront
5) Make someones life miserable because theirs sucks anyways
6) Try to be "know-it-all" whereas the reality is far from this
7) Pretend to be too cool for poor earthlings with little more brains than them
8) Like what he/she likes. Why? Because they need acceptance

so.. this is how it looks

Oh quite an eventful day it has been and continues to be!

Broke a few bones (mine), had a random conversation with a stranger, went to shoot and got shot, heard more rant about self. Wish people grow up and stop acting silly, atleast around me... if I remember right my first post on the blog some four years ago was something to do with jealousy...and it still holds true! Wow, Girls don't like me much.. especially those who think they are too smart for the world to figure but end up like fools more often.

Where to go?

Its been a while since I have traveled somewhere, switched off my cell phone and locked my laptop in.

Made photographs of everything I saw. Where next? When next?

Pondicherry?
Andamans?
Leh?
Shillong?
Goa again?