ACHIEVED!!! HURAAAAHHH

Turning nineteen wasnt all that exciting as I had imagined it to be. I though there'd be a pool of beer outside my house, I though I would be able to puff packs and packs of ciggies, I though I would be able to do whatever I wanted, I thought I could race my car on Carter road at night, I though I could get drunk and not come
back home at all. Ahhhh. But nothing of that sort happened. All I did was, get up early morning to receive calls from friends and relatives and spent the entire day doing just that. Yeah, not to forget a quiet lunch with friends and a great dinner with my folks. I dont know why I am blogging about my birthday which happened almost like ages ago, but suddenly today I feel like a grown up. More like those magical lightening kind of realizations shown in sci-fi!
Today I feel a heavy responsibility of a grown up, I feel mature and liable. After an year of becoming an adult, I finally feel like one. There is a sense of urgency to do things as if the world is going to end tomorrow. Claustrophobia coupled with excitment and a lot of other things are turning me upside down or downside up or
something like that, something that I am not able to make enough sense of. I feel tormented, frustrated and harrowed to the extent of running somehwere deep inside
woods. Many times I feel the adrenaline rush of sitting on a huge giant wheel awaiting an unexpected rush, a sudden jerk and then a smooth ride. Life has never been so uncertain, trust me. I am sure I am not going to read this blog entry after posting it because it will remind me of all these emotions that I am trying to keep away from. It will remind me of how unsure my thought flow is at this point that there is no distinct connection between how I started off writing and where I am going to end this. But for a change I am not feeling bound, am not feeling ruled. I am typing words and leaving the rest to make some sense on its own. I know I have failed miserably to channelise my thoughts but I am liking this failure. It is more like doing things in the moment, wow!!!! am finally in the present. After 100-150 odd desperate words, I am in the PRESENT.

Cheers!
xx

Moon-kissed beaches!

Now its official, I have a penchant for impromptu holidays and the latest was Kihim and Kashid in Konkan. Just a three hour drive from Bombay and you discover the amazing Konkan coastline. White sand, crystal clear water, hammocks and shacks welcome you as you get closer. Huge coconut trees stand still as you wonder if all of this is for real. I had always fantacized about walking unshod on a beach on a full moon day, and this time I actually did that. I spent almost three hours just gazing at the night sky and listening to the mellow sound of the water lashing on the shore. The silvery beach and the moonlit sky was a perfect location for that perfect kiss that every girl would have dreamt of. Alas! I was all alone :(...


The best of the surprises was the Culaba fort ( dont mistake it for our friendly area Colaba). This is an ancient fort built by Shivaji Maharaj and situated around 500 meters in the sea. So technically you have to wade through waist high water to get there. It is a very tiring task but fun at the same time.

Konkan also gets me excited because of the mouth-watering Konkani food. Right from Sol Kadi ( Kokam buttermilk) to rice rotis to Kothimbir wadi ( coriander patties). After two days of relaxation and laziness, i returned to the humdrum of the city life, something I just want to keep running away from, and am sure I am quiet successful at times!!

cheers